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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 00:53

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

What did i know ?

(And it was in our own minds.)

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Ive learnt so much.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My life is so biszare .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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Was to survive, this bastard.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

How did you become popular in school?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As i do to all so called friends.?

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She wouldn,t have been !

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

How can you maintain self-control?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I will be 64.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But, we were locked up after school.

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

So whats the point in blame.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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I was very sick at this time too.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

When she asked me how she looked .

But it wasn’t much.

One cannot live in the past .

Comes on , in middle age.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

It was going to be , some day.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Who then, do I blame.?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Im still living with it.

She married twice! .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

We were not on the streets..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She loved him until the end.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I write beautiful poetry .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And i lived it daily.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Why did i forgive my father ?

My family never makes their pension either.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was scared of men, in general

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

This is soul school!.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I said to her

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She was in good health!

Would this be the day?

He knew the spot.

Put me off passion for life!!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She found it foreign!.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I have no regrets .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I waited trembling.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

So, i spoilt her more .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I was seconnd youngest,

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He resisted the act ,that day.

I think the readers, may guess!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

We all went to grammer schools

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I could never make a relationship work though!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I couldn’t, believe it.

But ive been too sick for many years..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I don,t even have a pension.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I was 9 years of age.

All the time i was locked up.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .